Forgiveness

This past week I have learned a lot about forgiveness. All around me people were being forgiven and it was genuine. I also found out that the hardest thing to do is forgive yourself. Especially if you've hurt someone that means a lot to you. I for the first time have forgiven myself for situation that happened between my female best friend of 13 years and I. The situation occurred literally 3 years ago and just yesterday forgave myself for it. I feel relieved and like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Even though there are more things that we need to settle I am happy with the fact that I took the initial step in trying to fix it. Even though she nugged me a little bit lol. I've been avoiding the confrontation with her for those 3 years and I don't know why, other than the fact I was scared. Scared of what she might say to me, or scared of what the outcome might be. But once we got the talking I realized there was nothing to be afraid of, and the fact that she said that I have never been a fearful person just gave me all the more reason to talk to her. I say all of this to say this, Forgiving is hard enough as it is, but when it comes down to forgiving yourself when you know you were in the wrong that is the hardest task. So cut yourself some slack and be more willing to forgive yourself especially if the person that you hurt, has already forgivin you. Also don't let things lingure too long it may make it worse for yourself. Nip the situation right in the butt therefore people know exactly whats going on in your head. Let me know what you tink.